WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOO!!!!!, whats up everybody!?, Its been a long fricken time. Damn, I've been sooooo busy latelys and i havent had much time too update my xanga. Well its been about 2 weeks since my last entry soo i bettter make this one good. I've been doing ok, not gr8 but just....OK. 1st quarter ends in a week so im busting ass to bring my grades up, I'm such a fricken procastonator. Howz all of yall out there, good i hope (except for u tianna and u cathleen, I hope ure lives SUCK) hehe j/k. I got a lot of events coming up. One of my boyz having a bachelors party (fUk YeA!), I gotta practice lion dancing for kUnG-hI-fAt-ChOy!!! (i got like 4 parades to dance in then), Looking for a new job (I'm F***ing sick of SUBWAY!!!), I got the "Maui Triathalon" coming up...CHEEEE HEEEE!!!(I hope my team and I take 1st place, or 2nd, shit even 3rd is good, anything but LAST place), gotta help train my friends for their life-gaurd certification test (by "help" i mean sit on the side while yelling and telling them what to do), Gots my weight lifting test coming up (who woulda thought you could get tested in "weight-lifting class")LOL, I gotz like 3 new dances to learn for hula (I mean, I luv my culture and all but this might be too much!) hehe, and finnally, LOL i know ure all gonna fuking laff at me when i say this, ure all gonna be like "oh whatta fag, whatta loser" well screw you.........I got state championships for Magic: the gathering coming up (its a card game if you dont know, kinda like yu-gi-oh, BUT WAY BETTER!!!) alright lets hear it, go ahead tease me and call me names........I know ure laughing right now! yea, Im a dork, i admit it, so what, I'm proud of my dorkhood, LOL. Well neways, enuff about that shit. Alright, i gotz a new poem for yall, i wrote it after waking up repeatedly from a horrible nightmare (id rather not talk about what was that nightmare) and no matter how hard I tried to stay awake, I kept falling back into that endless nightmare...

"Silence"
By: Aukai Arkus

Silence in my darkened dream,
Silence...then I wake to scream

The silence gone
yet I have drawn
from these fears
a stream of tears

then once again despite my tries,
silence as I close my eyes.

Thunder clashes in my head,
I twist and turn inside my bed.

eyes are bloodshot,
palms are wet,
hair is mangled,
face is red.

Teeth are clenching, grinding tight.
muscles straining, skin is white.

I break the silence once again with a peircing scream,
I cannot hold my self for long and re-enter my dream.

then finnaly all the spinning stops,
pulse is weak, mind is lost.

I simply seem to fade away, cannot move nor see.
Then once again I hear that sound, Silence...endlessly.

man, theres not really a morale to this story, just that such a simple and seemingly harmless thing like "silence" can temporarily drive you off the edge of sanity and into the mouth of madness. I hope none of you have to feel what I felt that night.

ANYWAY, time for the fun part of my entry...

~*Question of the week*~

Q1 - would you give up your sight for the ability to see into the future?

                                             -OR-

Q2 - would you rather give up your sight in order to read minds?

~*Joke of the week*~

J - why did the TURKEY cross the road?

A -  because it was the CHICKENS day off!

...............the joke doesnt go too well after a poem like that eh?, LOL, well I tried!

well, "AlOhA aHuI hO e KaMaLi'I", which means take care all and farewell.
                                                  

                                                      mUcH lUv,
                                                        Aukai Arkus

"when death waves to a man, all he can do is simply wave back...that or give him the finger and run"

Well well well, its tuesday and the beginning of another week of sku......BAH! i was gonna make an entry yesterday but i was too tired, im still pretty tired but i took a nap so im alright. Everyone starting of the week right?, (asking that sounds kinda gay eh?) There aint much going on in my life right now, well, theres a lot of stuff, but nothing new. I think im gonna post up another poem tommorow, I'm too tired to go look for one now, LOL! Hey cathleen, its about damn time u found my page, lol. Dj, ure just gay and grant....u are too! J.R., dude u gotta write me back, u too thomas (military ballaz baby). Oh and Tianna, how was seeing DJ, everything you expected?!........ure stunned silence is very re-assuring. . As for you three in my geometry class (kori, rochelle and fionna), did we have homework?, i seemed to have fallen asleep in class again "hehe". Well thats all i gotz to say for now, hope yall have a good week and keep up wit ure skool work (im not one to talk, LOL) Take Care all!

~*Question of the week*~

        - would you rather be able to time travel to the past

                                       -OR-

        - would you rather be able to time travel to the future

          - (and for either, what whould you see?)

~*Joke of the Week*~ 

(plz dont get offended, after all, its just for shits and giggles)

        J: a black guy and a mexican guy are in a car, who's driving?

        A: "the cop"

that one always cracks me up, LOL......why do i feel like im the only one laughing? (sigh) :-/

      well its time for me to make like a tree and......branch?, CIAO!

PHEW!, finnally the weekend is over. My weekend kinda sucked BALLZ! LOL. I had to bust ass at work (I work at SUBWAY: "Eat fresh") LOL. But i dont wanna bitch about it. So anywayz, how was all of ure guyz weekends?! Good i hope. If yall wanna tell me, just write about ure weekend in a comment. (Like i really care.) LOL j/k. Ummm, I finnally got to talk to this girls that one of by best friendz is obsessed with, she's a bitch. LOL, THATS RIGHT TIANNA, YOU SUKKK!!!. LOL. I actually got a question for anybody out there willing to answer, I'm gonna try to do this "weekly question" thing, so please answer in a comment, its just for fun and piece of mind. So this weeks question is,"would you rather FLY or breathe underwater." I personally would rather breathe underwater. I just think that thats a little cooler then flying, i mean think about it. There's only so many places u can fly and so much things u can do while flying. But the earth is 3/4 water, 3/4!, thats like....HOLY CRAP MAN, endless possibilities. So newayz i wanna thank all of you who commented my last log, (and to those who didnt.....I spit on you!) and be aware that if u liked that poem below, theres plenty more to be posted in the future, and all were written by ures truly . Thanx yall. Take care.....By the by, I'm also gonna post a weekly JOKE kinda , so I hope it brings at least somewhat of a giggle to ure life. Buh-Bye.

-*Joke of the week*-

J: what do you call an overly femanine cow?

A: "Dairy Queen"

GET IT (chuckle chuckle).........Geez, it wasnt that funny. LOL.

                             Luv peace and chicken grease!

Alright yall, here's my first poem im posting on my xanga, I wrote it my freshman year when no matter how hard I tried and no matter how much we flirted, A certain girl wouldnt make it official by saying yes to me, hope you like it.

I'm sorry: by Aukai Arkus

I'm sorry for looking at you, I regret you caught my eye.

Im sorry you first pushed me away, forgive me for having to cry.

Pardon my intrusion for wanting you by my side.

I wish I could lament the way our hearts had to collide.

I went awry when I looked twice, I didn't mean to stare

I didn't mean to burden you, I didn't want to care.

All I wanted is your love, for me and me alone.

But I should've guessed by now, I probably should've known.

Despite my tries and heart filled tears, all was yet in vain.

I'll simply dismiss my empty dream and bottle up my pain

I stand accused of loving you, and guilty is my plea.

But all I can do is lie while saying simply "I'm sorry"

the funny thing is that after it was all over and i was ready to give up, we speant one night together which i was expecting to be our last. And just when I hardly tried and least expected it, I was holding her in my arms and her soft lips gently touched mine as we lay beneth the glistening stars. It was a night i will never forget.

MORALE:

desperately searching for love is like plucking a flower bud from a tree. Although the flower is in your possesion, you'll fail to see the full potential of its beauty and soon tire of it. Yet with patience and time, the flower will bloom, and when it is ready to disperse from its home and fall into your lap, you'll be staring at the most elegant creation in existence and all you had to do was simply wait and let it come to you. Take care everyone!